Work: Work was, well to put it in the most politically correct way I can and not get my ass fired, I will just say frustrating; month-end brings the beast out in all of us.
Family: The in-laws decided to drop by; and although welcome to keep the kids distracted so I can get my work all done and polished up, don’t really punish the kids when they decide to play WWE in the living room. Add on top of that the fact that said 3 kids were locked inside all day because Mother Nature decided today would be a great day to unleash her pissing war on us and we have a recipe for disaster. The email was pinging, my phone was buzzing, kids were chasing each other screaming; it was fabulous! I had unleashed my furry on them enough so I decided the only way to shut all the voices in my head and more importantly punish these crazy kids was to start a tickle fight. Oh that's right, I went nuts on them. I had these kids practically peeing themselves. It was a great way to unleash some pent up energy and anger (mine) and I got to hear them laugh instead of cry, whine or scream. It was all great fun.... Until...... one decided to fall backward when she was tickling another kid and hit her head. Oh she is fine now but the scare it gave me was enough to drive me into my old habit.
Can I have managed the stress better, absolutely. Did I? Absolutely not! What can I tell you, my will is going to take some time to adjust. I cannot switch my pain, feelings or habits on and off like a light switch. It took some time for me to quit smoking and it'll take time for me to channel fear and pain in a different way too. I think I may try a yoga class. Maybe it's about time I stopped making fun of those tree huggers and finally join them.
Until next time,
Live from the Inside Out,