I have to admit, when I started training for this Half Marathon, I was doing it for completely selfish reasons! I wanted to lose the excess baby weight, I am after all in my mid thirties. How easy was it going to be to tone these flabby bits? I thought a half marathon training would push me to do things I never dreamed of. The FEAR alone of running over 21 kilometers after having my third kid, would be enough to light a fire under my ass, right? Well right and wrong!
First there is the whole, I AM A MOM TO A BABY thing in my MID THIRTIES! Okay so there are hundred of thousands of moms to babies that train for events. Then there is the needy older children and why the hell am I learning to do Grade 3 math again? I thought I was done with that .... in grade 3, seems it's not so. There is the Wii addicted boy, who wants me to play with him and loves facing me with mom guilt. Then there is my addiction to food! Yes, my body said, "hey the baby's out, you can stop with the nightly ice cream binge" but my brain said "SHUT UP - IT TASTES SOOOOO GOOD!"
Then something started to happen as I started training. I started to THINK as an athlete. I started to think no matter how i look or how I do (timing) that day, I will put in all my effort and do this for ME! NO MORE EXCUSES! I started starring in my own show. I stopped caring about the nay-sayers. I stopped wanting to do this for baby weight or clothes fitting and wanted to do this for strength. INNER STRENGTH! The strength that makes your mind strong before it can make your body strong. That is the strength that I can show my children is the most important to have. Kids are very impressionable and watch your every move so why not make it a positive one?
Of course I still want the body that matches it, who doesn't? But things change after giving birth. Body parts shift, there is sagging in places no one knew would droop, and there are other people who depend on your every movement.
Reality is your body may never look like it did when it did when you were 20, but so what? Learn to love yourself. I mean deeply love yourself. Look into your eyes in the mirror and be grateful for your gifts. I know you have some gifts somewhere in there. They can be physical, they can be emotional, they can be material. YOUR GIFTS!
My gifts are that I can use my legs to walk, my arms to embrace my children, my fully functional mind to make decisions and my strong lungs to breathe in the fresh air.
Of course my children are also my gifts along with my husband's support but those would not be possible without the gifts I hold inside of myself.
Find your gift, find yourself and be strong and healthy for yourself first.
Live from the inside out,